Mortal Love - I Want To Die

We have touched for the last time, you are long gone... in love with someone else. I now fear nothing but life itself and I have learned that living is just a slow way to die... I do not believe in life or in love anymore. The joy I feel are joys of the emptiness, I hate myself for loving you...
The fear I feel night after night has developed into a disease, no one can see the emptiness in my eyes... To escape life itself now, seams the only solution. With relief I look foward to letting go of the pain, finally, there is peace in my soul, to lying dead without the concern, without a tear... You own my heart and life without you is so immensely painful... Just to think of you, talk about you, dream of you... makes tears stream down my face... I can not imagine happiness without your beautiful smile, your angelic face, your wonderful body and your good heart... You are everything, I am nothing... I want to die, but really, I am already dead...